“Sunrise and set are the same to me”

Even though it was made abundantly clear and maybe I've always known, it didn't take away that all too familiar sting. I should be used to it by now but it doesn't make it any easier to manage. I really have tried...maybe not as well as a normal person would have but I did try. …

“It all comes to down to this, I’m hiding in plain sight”

Falling behind already. Way behind it seems. Life is just testing me these days. No use crying or worrying about all these things though. It is what it is. I am very good at going with things, the ebb and flow of life so to speak. I really wish you were better at talking. Maybe …

Gee…thanks.

Short blurb because I feel worse about my birthday than I did the other night. My dad asked if I did anything for my birthday, I told him no. He was almost shocked, you didn't go out or anything? I said nope. In order for that to have happened, you would actually need friends. I …

Birthdays are a drag

Well another birthday has come and gone, the big 2-9, no one says that about 29. No one seems to care after 21, at least not until you are 30 and every decade after that. It was a nice day at least. I had to help out my little brother's school with their All-School Picnic. …

Nothing in here tonight.

I am back at this again, it has been awhile but that's what I am good at doing. I love to stop things just as quick as I start them. I have no idea why I can't commit to anything long enough. Maybe it's boredom in the end, that's the easy way out, the fast …

“I tend to push ’em ’til the pushing’s turned from hurting to burn”

Here I go pulling away from the few people I do have in my life. I find myself not wanting anything to do with my close friend. I would usually play video games with this person and talk a lot to them, now? Hardly. Who is to blame here? He is hardly around anymore and …

“You’ll talk like a mime”

Life throws these little surprises just to keep you on your toes. You reached out to me for the first time, you asked me to play with you...and me being who I am just couldn't talk. You didn't talk either but it feels worse when I do it. Why is this so hard for me? …

“Nothing’s ever lost that we can’t find”

Every night I tell myself I will go to bed earlier or at least attempt to do that and each night I fail. Even if I attempted to sleep earlier it would just consist of me laying in bed with only my thoughts. As of right now my thoughts are definitely not good company. Always …

“The concept of sleep is way too tired”

I keep flip-flopping with journals/diaries for the past couple years. I was super into it in 2015, stopped writing for a while, just started again in the beginning of this year. I just start so strong and then fizzle out, much like everything else I do in my life. I cannot concentrate or commit for …

Simple Rant

This is going to be a rant/feelings post, if you don’t care about this please just keep on doing whatever it was you were doing. I have no idea what’s been going on lately but I am very down and out these days. I don’t know if I should blame the weather, the stars, the …